Monday, May 31, 2004

wah haha my friend from overseas just called! haha and i thought he is my junior somemore.. haha ever since sec 4 then nv see him cuz he went sydney study.. haha had a fun time talking to him at the expense of my hp bill! i'm dead this month... haha...
*yawnz*

i'm happy once again!! *grinz*

Posted by Jeannie at 10:25 PM

Sunday, May 30, 2004

wah shouldn't go suntec on a sunday.. you'll get squeezed to death.. haha with singapore sale going on and the various exhibitions available, it near impossible to walk freely and be able to breathe properly.. haha had kenny rogers for lunch and walked about... wanted to watch movie but the timing was off and everything so din watch... had crystal jade "la mian" for dinner, its nice! haha today's weather so rainy.. but i like it!

reading past emails from him and look wad i found:
"Haha... dear, when making friends u must be very very careful, ok? Haha...
Dun be too trusting to ppl... Ehrm.... Think u can trust mi lah
cos i won't hurt u mah..."
RIGHT, how ironic..

HERO - Mariah Carey
There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Posted by Jeannie at 7:11 PM

Saturday, May 29, 2004

exhausted in mind and body....
1st match against NJ was a total disaster.. everyone was lethergic and slow, and so we lost.
the moment the final whistle was blown, there was a deadly silence...
all of us just sat silently, unbelieving...
listened to the sobs of some, swallowed my tears and stared numbly at the ground..
THAT is the feeling of losing a match.
spirits were lightened when we won sajc and emerged as 3rd.. haha tt was when we all cheered up and talked abt dinner.. recieved cards and notes from some, peiqin baked cookies and it was delicious!! haha i like lina's present too! everyone so sweet...
luckily next week still have another tournament.. i like playing rugby..
haha went suntec to eat kenny rogers and went shopping.. haha just reached home not long ago...
Tinghao msg me from sydney! haha tts quite rare, hope he is fine there!

*sigh* are we drifting apart?

Posted by Jeannie at 11:47 PM

Friday, May 28, 2004

hmm haha just realised i've lost contact with my friend overseas.. think i forgot to reply the email? haha just emailed him again, hope he is doing well over there! wah last time we talked on msn was ages ago... during the international contact rugby comp when we both realise we support All Blacks! haha was quite funny when we added each other on msn and realised we both have nicks tt contain All Blacks in it.. haha cute. eh wah email is fast he just suggested calling.. all the way from sydney, haha but think he can't get through my house phone, oh well... haha..
tml really last day of comp le, provided it doesn't rain again.. against NJC in the semi finals, if we win we'll fight for 1st and 2nd with either HCJC or SAJC, depending on which one of them win each other... the panic hasn't set in YET. haha match in the afternoon at farrer park, starts at 3... means if i wan go back cchs i can't i think... hmm..
was in my email folders and found all the emails HE sent to me in the past.. time flies, and time really can heal all pain... haha it really seemed impossible at tt time, but then its true... hmm decided to read the 1st email on the list and this sentence stands out from the paragraph:
"Parting is such sweet sorrow that i'll say goodbye till we meet again.."
tts wad he likes to say....
and so i abandoned the thought of reading all his mails, why go through the pain?
but curiousity prevails... and i open the folder again...
haha i'm such a stupid girl...
its a long night ahead...

Posted by Jeannie at 11:30 PM

Thursday, May 27, 2004

haha sports carnival is over!!! haha okok lah quite fun and everything..
hmm 1st day went there and realised had nothing to do from 8 to 1130! hhaha so walked around, watched abit of table tennis, soft volleyball matches... then watched temasek idol! haha quite fun i like the band "silversounds"!! they were really good i must admit.. haha after tt went for capt ball! wah we really not bad we din train or prac at all but still can win 2 classes.. but then lost to 13/03 lah.. haha it was a frustrating match and oh my god tj guys are really quite losers... ok lah not every guy but wah tt guy as a real ungentlemen... capt ball allows 2 guys in one team.. this guy is the defender and he was SUPER rough... when others try to defend him from defending our shots, he make snide and stupid comments... and we are girls! he was so immature... serve him right he got scolded by our class girls.. and he was still being a bad sport and was talking back lah... haha but i think he quite brainless.. he was saying wad "my gp 95 percentile" or something.. 1st he comes into conflict with girls... and our class literature girls somemore... talking abt gp wahaha of cuz we can do better lah... plus our class girls all outspoken and eloquent.. GIRL POWER!! hee..
ok dun talk abt that guy le! haha after capt ball ended for went to bathe in sch with rugby girls.. oh yah i wanna thank my mum! haha i last min decided to stay overnight for the camp and she so nice help me bring the things i need to sch! haha thanx mum!! *muacks* anyway, we went century square to watch Troy! haha i like tt movie though i keep falling aslp at 1st.. haha ppl when u are very tired dun go CS watch movie.. the seats too comfy! haha brad pitt was ok ba.. i like hector better! but i like wad brad pitt said.. " u gave me peace in a lifetime of war" or something like tt.. so sweet! haha...
oh yah then when movie ended already 11 plus le, rushed to take 38 back to sch! haha in the end went mingjia's house since its just opposite sch anyway... haha watched tv lah, was sitting in a very comfortable chair and guess wad? haha i was the 1st to fall aslp.. *grinz* sleephead me... haha woke the 1st though, ate breakfast and went back for continuation of sports carnival! haha since we have no events for today we had training early morning.. watched temasek idol.. silversounds won the group category!! haha.. was worried abt sat's match against NJ and maybe HCJC so called coach and she came to talk to us abt some impt details.. after tt came home!
tired.. think i'm going to be sick.. in the rain for 2 days le, 1st day is capt ball halfway rained, haha we all so cute squeezed under a tent then so windy in the end still drenched.. 2nd day trained in the rain then went was temasek idol in the freezing audi! eh... i'm supposed to do a geog essay and study geog test, why am i here??!!! the attraction of the internet... haha..

Posted by Jeannie at 9:39 PM

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

yay tml is sport's carnival! haha no more boring and monotonous lectures or tutorials for 2 days! haha podering whether to go watch troy and stay overnight in sch with the ruggers.. seems fun! haha..
dunnoe why i suddenly have a fear for girls... its seems like females can really resort to means to get things the way they wan... are females so formidable even their own gender get scared of them? indescribable feeling.. hard to explain..
the problem is just getting bigger.. hai why can't ppl just understand? we dun blame the house comm for causing the injury and we are not making a big fuss out of the injury.. we are not attacking the issue, just a certain someone who was badmouthing and insulting our capt.. YOU ppl don't know how impt she is to our team, u all dun know how hard we trained together, how we shout out encouragements to each other and pat each other on the backs when having torturous physical training, how we prepare as a team be4 a match and pray hard we can work well together, all our efforts will be paid off and rewarded.. after months of serious training and yearning to play and win as a team for the last touch rugby match together in TJ was wad all of us looked forward to.. did YOU all witness the pain she went through? did u all see the blood tt was in the drain? yah she was up and walking the next day after the accident... she was smiling and walking up the stairs and everything.. wad she din show was the disappointment when she realised she can't play her best in our last tournament, she din show her tears to YOU doens't mean she is not hurting.. she din complain and din even try to retaliate when YOU say she is faking her injury...
really din wan say all those, and no offence.. but if u think its easy having 15 stitches, getting scolded for reasons which are unreasonable and having ppl say there is a big fuss made, think abt it again...
hai... u knw how much i yearn to scream at you when u write all tt in your blog? dun make me hate you, i hate to hate ppl, esp girls..
*resolves to forget abt tt evil girl and revert back to peace loving self tml.. no more reading her blog or you'll start to resent her!*

Posted by Jeannie at 10:24 PM

Monday, May 24, 2004

wah training was tough today! i've been exercsing 6 days in a row le..
wed:comp
thurs:training
fri:training
sat:comp
sun:big walk
today:training
tml:pe
wed:sports carnival run 1 km and captain ball match
looks little but its exhausting me.. my muscles are screaming! haha but i like all these though.. can't believe i actually like running now! haha love rugby!!!
tired...
and CY, i can take 80! silly.. oops and not tt i dun wan answer ur call, is i put silent and forgot tt i off the vibration.. so din know..
*yawnz* sleepy sleepy...

Posted by Jeannie at 10:16 PM

i'm in the school lib with geraldine my dear daughter and my dear laogong joan! haha waiting for rugby at 430 then nothing to do so decided to go on HER blog again and guess wad? i found another bad bad girl who is vulgar... whats up with girls and their colourful languages nowadays... doesn't they realise tt excessive using of this kind of language makes them low grade and sound crude? weird ppl... and i thought tt girl was nice too... therefore moral of the story is: dun judge a book by its cover....
haha decided to ignore HER after counselling and advice from someone.. talking to you always calms me down and make me think rationally.. thanks! *grinz* as my primary sch teacher would say, she is "digging her own funeral".. so.. haha whatever!!
hai but both of the bad girls are really pretty... wad is the world coming to??!!!!

Posted by Jeannie at 2:41 PM

Sunday, May 23, 2004

haha was woken up at 6 in the morning to go for the big walk... it was only 5.6km! cuz the nicoll highway collasped ma, so the route shorter.. ok lah it passed quite fast.. haha went with family, yeewen's family and christina from cchs band! haha then we went orchard to walk and ate marche!! wah seems to me i go orchard lots of times nowadays... was so tired tt i just fell aslp on the sofa from abt 2 to 6.. sorry geraldine!! haha...
wah geraldine and xtina talking abt that bad girl on their blogs too! yah haha both of you are correct! i read her blog and wince at how impossibly cruel and evil she can be and she seems to enjoy being evil.. abit sadistic ya? makes me have an indescribable feeling... like... i oso dunnoe wad haha.. hai she really have a grotesque character! theres a guy who is so childish whom i do not wan to mention who could only tell me:" u just dun know her well enough, she is not like tt" hello dear, wake up to the world! u think u know her well enough? she can be nice? of course she nice to guys right.. apparently, its you who dun know her well enough.. i'm super disappointed in you.. dear girl, read the rest of your blog and realised u can be nice and functional like all the rest of us girls.. in fact, pls be nice, i'm sure u wun like to know tt u are in the hatred list of many ppl now and u are constantly being cursed and scolded.. i know i wun like tt, i'll be heartbroken.. ok but u seem to enjoy being hated..

Posted by Jeannie at 7:06 PM

Saturday, May 22, 2004

wah i hate the weather!!! 2 different rugby tournaments were postponed due to rainy weather... wed played for the OFS tournament le so today was supposed to be the last tournament le, the M1 sponsored tournament... then its a nationals com... was postponed once le then today morning weather was bright and sunny so we happily played against the OFS again and we won them!! wahaha... then played against NYP and won them!!! cuz last time lost to both of them in friendlies be4 ma.. the tournament all the teams are separated in group A and B.. we are the 1st in our group cuz we defeated SAJC,YJC,OFS and NYP.. so our next match is against NJC who is the 2nd in the other team... if we win them we'll fight for 1st and 2nd with HCJC i think... and WE WILL WIN!!! so when we were there, having won 2 matches and thoroughly psyched up and ready to play the semis, our dearest sky began to rain... and all our hearst sank and the match is postponed.. AGAIN. just when we gained our momentum... and when they say match postponed, the dearest sun decided to shine!!! ah so we went far east to eat at "magic wok"... the food so spicy! haha.. then went taka to see some sports day for women thing.. filled in some survey forms, lucky draw, and we all won things like nike socks, badges and a nice nike bottle! then went poh suan house... haha her dog so cute! extremely cute kind... white and fluffy! haha learnt how to play mahjong... quite easy to learn! haha.. thanks to sharon my shifu!! haha...
want to watch troy.. once again another wk gone and i still haven't watched it..
wadever i shall watch it alone!

Posted by Jeannie at 11:14 PM

Friday, May 21, 2004

tml last rugby compeition le...
the feeling is undescribable...
i nervous and scared abt it...
and my sis only gave me 5 mins to write this blog..
seriously i'm going to burst with anger soon...
she sit by the com every night and play a stupid game and talk to her friends, which disturbs me in my slp with her typing and the com light and she is stingy enough to only give me a few mins everynight and complains when i wan to use the com..
hai teenage hormones... and to sis if u are secretly trying to read my blog( in which u admitted some time ago) grow up dear, tt game is very stupid and really honestly quite brainless...
sorry ppl, these few days agressive entries... see, busy schedules and evil ppl provoking jeannie turns her into a fairly bad person...
i hate myself...
change me back!!

Posted by Jeannie at 10:07 PM

Thursday, May 20, 2004

god... i can't believe there is such a bad person existing in this world... i know women are creatures you shouldn't offend and women can be vicious and cruel and all but.. its abit too much to shift all the blame to others and scold ppl like tt in the blog.. pls grow up dear, i know u are pretty, cuz the 1st time i saw u i was overwhelmed and yes, i was gaping... BUT u have such an ugly heart and personality tt it shadows everything else.. i wonder why u can't treat girls like u treat guys? hello wake up in case u dunnoe u are the same gender as us... i believe everyone can be nice and sweet k, hai stop living in a self illusion.. be nice!
anyway its a long story to why i say all the above.. lazy say...
had training today, tired! one last thing i want to say is:
ppl, pls always be nice to everyone k, do not scold innocent ppl who apparently have no ill feelings towards you.. and pls dun be stupid enough to scold someone well loved by everyone.. esp NOT someone from touch rugby.. u just incurred the wrath of 17 touch ruggers my dear, not including alot of ppl u've insulted be4... its really not very nice to be in the bad books of rugby players.. come on, show everyone the nice side of you and stop being a disappointment to the female population...

Posted by Jeannie at 10:14 PM

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

haha today had the Overseas Friendly Schoold invitational tournament.. haha left the sch at 3 plus to go there, its somewhere near orchard lah.. haha played against sajc, jjc, rjc, nyjc, the overseas family sch, australian international sch(i think) and the united world college... haha won 4 matches, draw one and lost 2 to the foreign schs.. wah all the girls in foreign schs have long legs, are slim, pretty and have fast speed! haha their figures all very good... ok today was ok, but it was definitely better than the sunday friendly match with blacks! and i take back all the things abt the v.capt last time.. she really nice, think tt sunday the weather too hot then plus i did so many silly mistakes so everyone was cranky... she gave us each a card today and on mine she said she din mean to shout and she say i play with her will feel pressurized... hey thanks girl, i appreciate it.. like wad coach say, wad is said or shouted on the field will be left in the field, when we walk out its all forgotten and we are all teammates!! plus i really like her as a person and she din shout today! *grinz* the last game played with rjc was the best.. hope we can play like tt on sat.. i'll give my best on sat, last game le! hai dun wan it all to stop... i'll miss rugby...
was very angry with this person.. she is with us in the astro com yet she is shirking her responsibilities.. the last time we have a astro meeting she made all sorts of excuses to get out of it... this time its the same.. should have a astro orientation on fri night.. then we only 6 com members and we already in shortage.. msged everyone last night at 10pm, everyone replied except her..and i put reply ASAP in the msg somemore.. this morning she already in sch at assembly and still dun reply till i sms her again to ask.. then she make alot of excuses say she dun wan to go... say she got training on fri till abt 8, but then i tell her she can still come astro after 8 wad, wun end so early, then next she say very tired... tues training, wed econs quiz, thurs bio test, and fri training.. and she need to celebrate mum's bday on weekend ( like will need alot of strength like tt )so i decided to list out my dearest schedule to her:
wed comp (today lah, reached home at 9 ok.. played 7 games!) then tml training, fri maybe rugby clinic and then have to go astro till late late, next day sat got nationals comp(serious, impt) which starts at 9 means 7 plus 8 have to reach... like who need more rest??!!! plus she dun even have to lift a finger or use her brain to organise the orientation, she just have to come show her face and help abit... then she say she ask het father write letter to excuse her.. the 1st time i get so angry with someone in tjc... pls exercise some responsibility k.. i hate to complain abt other ppl like tt... being in astro and in exco is your choice, no one force you and the least u can do is help sometimes.. WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO WASTE SMS AND LITERALLY BEG YOU TO COME HELP US?! i'm tired of it.. girl ah, hope u wake up soon, u are not the only person living in this world, the world doesn't revolve around you alone...
ok sis wan the com again.. going slp, hope tml a better day! and all my bad moods and ill feelings towards her will dissolve.. now still sore abt it.. night!
anyway, realised today 19th may.. haha if i was still with him, yesterday will be 2 yrs anniversary.. time flies...

Posted by Jeannie at 10:37 PM

Sunday, May 16, 2004

today is a mix of good and bad things... haha woke at abt 9 plus and went for rugby training at 1pm at farrer park... one point to note is tt, pls do not play sports in an open field with no shelter on an afternoon in singapore... you will melt or faint on the field... oh well, it was my worse performance anyway.. i really din mean to make all those silly mistakes but i really couldn't think properly... scolded/reprimanded alot of times but v.capt... i'm sure she din mean to be harsh but its just at the heat of the moment during the game.. 1st time in my life i was contemplating just walking off or talk back at her... cuz some of the mistakes seriously is not purposely... is the stupid referee block me, and somethings i did correct but then she nv see properly and scold anyway.. must admit in the stupid scorching weather and fatigue i nearly cried but swallowed it down.. but then she turn back to her own self after tt lah.. know its my fault i played like rubbish... dunnoe wads happened to me today... tt CY is useless, only know how to make cutting comments
oh well, these things aside, had a happier evening! haha met shena, wanqi and haoting to go orchard buy cyn's present! haha bought pink slippers for her! haha then went to eat at pastamania... i like pastamania!!! haha although we all in diff schools we still can talk and play and joke so well together! haha then we went walk walk and take neoprints!! bought a cake for cyn and she was so touched... haha we were all so reluctant to separate and go home.. miss them lots.. they are the best things to happen this week! haha.. love you all dears... *hugz*

Posted by Jeannie at 11:29 PM

Saturday, May 15, 2004

haha had an overall exciting day today! can't believe i actually woke at 7am on a saturday just to watch a bball match.. oh well, haha so i went SMU to watch the bball match btwn tj and aj.. not bad, but tj lost 78 to 82... 4 points.. but their playing was good.. if not for some idiot who injured number 8 ronnie then maybe still got chance.. but then 14 not bad too! wah his shooting was super nice and so accurate.. number 11, think his name is alan, look like gangster, haha walks like one too, think he from cchs... but he good too, haha his play on the court charmed many girls!
well, went orchard with ross and jace.. haha ate lunch, walked and walked till 3 when jace had to go.. so me and ross decided to go suntec... guess wad, channel U recording a game show there and we saw qi yu wu, wang jian fu, michelle and chew chor meng!!! wah that qi yu wu... i think the whole suntec female population was melting at the sight of him.. he very handsome in person(and i rarely SERIOUSLY say ppl handsome one k) haha then me and ross walked away and decided to sit in gelare and do homework... then they all had to choose there to film! qi yu wu and a contestant had to eat icecream without using hands and to our horror they approached a couple behind us to help eat it... haha luckily my back is to the camera! haha poor ross was in full view and she was pretending she reading bio notes.. haha after tt she looked at the mirror and was complaning her hair messy.. haha was very funny... tt qi yu wu really... not his looks but he has a knid of charisma abt him which is very charming.. haha.. yup went home after tt and now sitting in front of the com again... raining just now! that CY called at 8pm ask me go gym with him and i thought he was crazy... i just bathed and its raining and he wan me go gym?? haha weird, thought should go with guys... was left with question marks circling my head after tt...
bored so now writing friendster testimonials for those i haven write for.. haha sat night and i am sitting at home.. was home at 645! mum thought was miracle.. haha.. tml got rugby training!!wah lianwei became the pres of tj band!!! haha so pro... then guangyao is the QM, kailing the librarian and junwei the teasurer.. proud of them!! haha.. hmm very long nv talk to lianwei le, last time quite ok but now abit losing contact, haha nvm still will see them in sch!

i dun think u care so i'm not going to care too!!!!*hai*

Posted by Jeannie at 11:31 PM

Friday, May 14, 2004

hai typed so long and my dearest com had to hang... my dear computer, WHY YOU DUN LIKE ME??! always must sabotage me at important moments like when i forgot to save my project and when it is nearly completed and you had to blank out..
oh well, i'll re-say everything! haha was talking abt how i am going for bball match btwn AJ and TJ tml with the rugby ppl.. was a last min decision... can wear new rugby shirt! haha... but dunnoe wad to do after tt.. either go xt house or go shopping with ross... or i'll go home and mug! feel like mugging.. haha..
today is the worse day of the week... 1st lesson and we had to bear with the civics tutor who wanted us to list out core values of the school and present them out... think he really can be nice when he wants to but he really too biased, unreasonable and childish at times.. when he feels like it he can just pick anything just to quarrel or scold you.. weird.. oh well, he is digginghis own grave cuz many ppl starting to hate him.. hai i dun like this.. its such a pity to graduate with a form teacher that you dun really like... its like in the yrs to come and i go back to visit i dun even care for any teacher enough to wan see themm i much rather go back to cchs and visit mdm wong.. suddenly missing secondary sch life.. why can't we have own classrooms in jc? and same combi... secondary sch is still the best no matter wad, there is when u meet friends tt lasts for life.. ok tts wad i think..
anyway be4 i sidetracked to so many things was talking abt wad a lousy day today is.. after the boring civics we had double gp period in which we had to do compre.. during free period tt followed ate lunch and mugged.. then had the maths test in which the FIRST sentence of the FIRST question dun make any sense to me... then had double geog in which did another DRQ test...
stayed in sch wait for rugby... played with the guys again. they really look comical playing touch rugby, ended up we all laughing more than we play actually.. haha though they really quite rough, someone crashed into me leaving my arm momentarily numb but no serious matter lah..
fed up with the year ones in the house commitee.. i dun wan to scold them but they really are a brainless bunch.. its 8pm at night and super dark.. with many ppl still in sch.. they took away the grille of the drain for dunnoe wad reason and left a gaping hole for for ppl to fall into.. poor lina lost so much blood.. could see the blood and tissue and the cut was so deep.. it was a gross and deep cut.. need stitches.. could see by the way she clenching my shirt that it really hurts when they clean her wound.. *hugz* lina tk care and recover soon!
went home with CY, long time nv talk to him, ok lah the last time was monday(i think)
and i'm feeling tired le....
listening to a nice song called "hui you na me yi tian" by lin junjie.. think there is a english version called "love, me" if i nv remem wrongly.. the lyrics very touching.. makes you think of whether when you are old will you be with the one u love? grow old together loving each other.. so sweet =) the channel 8 show in which the sis and bro in love just ended today... the guy died of bone cancer.. the ending was extremely touching...
going slp le ba, quite tired...
i've given up on you, bet you dunnoe it, bet you dun even know i care to try in the 1st place...

Posted by Jeannie at 11:32 PM

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

i'm starting to dread coming to msn recently.. haha cuz my friend is so happily attached and its showing all over.. she talks abt it, her msn pic is of them together.. haha the guy is like super sweet and i was reduced to telling her to nv give him up.. cute.. haha..
my sis is going online every night and its getting on my nerves... she wun even give me a few mins to type my blog and i had loads of things to say(ok lah maybe is complain) haha now i forget everything i wan say..
astro is now merged with the science council and everything is a mess now.. apparently Tj is supposed to organise a science fair representing s'pore and we are in charge... its a major event... plus there is a June camp in which the date keeps changing and schedule keep changing too. today had a meeting with the sciemce council ppl, supposedly starts at 3pm but it was 1/2 hour late...
wanted to write abt monday's rugby training.. 1stly it lasted from 4pm to 8 and the weather was horrendously hot(note the word horrendously, it was really THAT hot)then everyone was quite rusty and keep making mistakes.. ok maybe not everyone but most of us... then everyone in not very good mood, ppl keep getting injured.. my ribs and finger hurt... bad training day... nothing much, went home with CY and was cheered up by him..
wah sunday got training and friendly match with blacks! haha going to be super tiring.. at 2pm somemore.. sunburning day!
struggled with maths tutorial just now.. statistics is confusing!
filled with mixed emotions...
should i like you, or not?
i guess its really not a choice...

Posted by Jeannie at 11:08 PM

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

haha i thought this blog wasn't working... cuz it stubbornly wun post my new entries! haha like owner like blog, both stubborn... haha hope it will carry on working lah...
anyway can't write in wad i wanna write cuz my dear sis wan use the com.. she's been selfishly dominating the com for weeks... lazy argue with her.. so have to postpone wad i wan to say to next time! haha i'm a rubbishy girl...

Posted by Jeannie at 10:00 PM

Sunday, May 09, 2004

a boring boring sunday...
read a book and saw this quote inside:
"the great thing abt unrequited love is that it lasts forever"
hmm is tt true? haha dunnoe also but kind of like it...
haha joan was talking abt the movie "50 1st dates" on her blog.. haha it is near impossible to find a guy who can be so sweet...
hmm realised something.. joan was saying she is not going to diet anymore cuz she wan to be loved cuz of her own person and not her looks.. kind of true isn't it.. in the world every woman and girl are trying to improve their looks in every way.. u stand by the road for 5 minutes also can easily count many pretty girls... how do u compete with them? anyone can win you easily.. haha so looks are just a perception! the safest way is to be loved as a person... by personality and character, thats the kind that lasts... *enlightened*
muscle ache cuz friday had to throw 4kg medicine ball around to train arm strength...

Posted by Jeannie at 5:04 PM

haha i change blog again! think this one shall be permanent lah.. tired of remembering all the diff blogs... i remem last time i have three blogs.. one is xanga, purely for ppl to be entertained when reading, one is for closer friends, the other is private and only viewed by me... hmm will have to make up my mind which kind i wan this blog to be.. haha shall think slowly!
hmm so long nv write in a blog le.. many things have happened since... oh well shall skip everything and start from today! ok since now already past 12am so is officially 9th may le... Junwei, happy birthday!
haha ok i slacked at home the whole morning lah.. sat morn quite boring, nothing to watch on tv.. only cartoons.. watched powerpuff girls! haha then i went out at 12 plus to meet Huishan at tpjc bus stop... haha was so excited! haha songfest was so nice... 1stly alot of pretty girls( i'm not les ) haha then the standard of the performance was high lah... haha junyi and jean's duet was super nice... haha but i like the malay guy best, he really the 2nd version of reuben from american idol.. chubby like a big big teddy bear and when he sang "purest of pain" everyone just melted... he has the perfect voice to sing love songs...
anyway everything was perfect just tt it was freezing cold inside... lasted three hours plus.. missed my 1st three months classmates.. haha saw lots of ppl i know... haha saw this girl who looks familiar but can't remem who she is, then she smiled and said hello to me and i was momentarily blur.. then she said "your name jeannie right?" haha then i couldn't remem her name at all.. asked her name, think its clarice... haha was surprised she can even remem my name, i dun think i ever talked to her during 1st three months in band... yup so went with junyi, huishan, jianqiang and christopher to eat at cafe cartel at tampines mall..
nasir came and meet me after tt lah.. haha pei him eat mac, then decided to go east coast to sit in coffee bean lah... halfway through he decided to go tjen sin's house to meet cx they all... at 1st din really wan to go lah, but then he convinced me so we went.. at bayshore.. haha then cx and derui went swimming... the pool was so nice i was tempted to just jump in.. haha but i din lah of course.. but was soaked anyway cuz cx splash water on me! *bish* haha end up i nearly froze on the way home.. anyway nasir sent me to the nearest bus stop and consulted his agent in the hp( something he say only police have) and came up with all possible buses and routes i can take to go home.. so i took 10 then change to 135 and was home! realised i really hate going home alone at night... was feeling worried at the cchs bus stop when waiting for 135 cuz foreign workers walking abt... and my neighbourhood is the kind which is completely quiet and deserted by 9plus 10 pm... walking along it at 11 plus or 12 plus can be scary... ok lah maybe is i lousy or something... haha then reached home and forgot to call nasir, in the end he called to make sure.. hai i always forget one... haha think its sweet the way guys ensure girls reach home safely.. guys who do tt, you rock! *grinz*
think i should go slp le... will turn into a panda soon...
oh yah, tjc had a career fair on wed and i was looking at some MOE scholarship thing when i realised the poster have alot of photos of students from some schools and of all ppl they have to put daniel's picture there, caught me by surprise, think i was momentarily rooted to the ground.. chekyong smsed and invited me to the nyjc homecoming carnival.. said he can play host, tt the carnival will be fun, like funfair... crazy... would i be so stupid to go and see how loving they all and get hurt in the process? can't go cuz have tpjc songfest anyway... out of curiousity went to look at her friendster... obviously happily attached, whole page full of "laogongs"...
her status is "married"
occupation is "daniel's laopo"
hometown is "daniel's heart"
interests is "spending time with laogong"
fav movies "watching dear dear act cute"
and who does she wan to meet? "my laogong, just want to meet him every sec every min of the day..."
sounds totally in a bliss to me... from all the testimonials she sounds like a nice, sweet, pretty and kind person...
why do i even bother?
see all tt jeannie? obviously it has nothing to do with you anymore.. who are you compared to her? probably will pale in comparison to her in every way....