Wednesday, November 22, 2006

roar. my brain is saturated with sociology.

i feel at peace today. old wounds, new wounds, i feel like i can handle them.

maybe it was the rain.

i chose to forgive and forget. and i hope i can.

tough period ahead ppl, mug hard!! not used to hall being so quiet.

im looking forward to picnic with 2903 girls yay!!

and all the trainings in dec. i think im more busy in dec than during term.

till them, online retail therapy! hahahaha.

thanks to all the angels in my life who tagged, smsed and lydia who flew to my side and consoled me. i love u all! *hugs*

Posted by Jeannie at 2:47 AM

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

im disappointed in you.

disbelief. pain. anger. rushed through me like waves.

for a moment i sat there, and trembled. dizzy, light headed.

so i've been such a fool all along.

bitch. bastard.

a new kind of pain. of wad guys are capable of doing.

i hope you both are drinking champagne and celebrating.

build your own satisfaction on other's pains.

a million ways to get back to her swam in my mind.

pardon if u keep sneezing, im imagining diff ways of torturing you.

cant u just mind your own business and your own life?

i seriously hope u are happy now. go, go on and ruin all his r/ns.

be selfish. and remember there's such a thing called karma.

hope karma hits you hard then.

i'll get by. alone.

i. am. strong.

i will be.

Posted by Jeannie at 9:15 PM

Friday, November 10, 2006

seriously. i think your views about the ponding is so wrong.

"they(senior girls) know who is boss when it comes to ponding and succumb to the males."

EXCUSE ME. we do not. and im sure our seniors dun.

is tt we cant be bothered. CANT BE BOTHERED. to retaliate anymore.

since u all want to flaunt your strength and muscles to boost your ego, youre welcome to it.

we cant reason with you, we cant retaliate with ponding. obviously if u all really want to pond us, we can do nothing abt it.

we dun SUCCUMB. we give up cuz u all wun heed wad we say anyway.

and NO. u all are far from being our boss.

sian. y are guys still so childish even if they're all so much older.

Posted by Jeannie at 10:49 AM

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Raining! Nothing can cheer me up better than raining.

hahaha how good it will be if i have a bf who call control rain at his beck and call.

so easy to cheer me up.

ways to cheer jeannie up:

1. food
2. food
3. food
4. have i mentioned food?

hahahahahaha

ok la.

1. food
2. rain
3. a nice book (when i say nice, it means bimbo nice cover color book. not thse tt make u think)
4. miraculously i dun really fancy chocolate. i love mint ice cream!
5. ONLINE SHOPPING. retail therapy. helps alot. alot alot.
6. eat pepper lunch (note: i keep talking abt eating)
7. i miraculously lim down without me exercising. hahahahahah
8. I MISS JOAN!!!!!!! come back. =(

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did i say amanda is evil?

you're evil! =( i would burn down your room if not for fear of burning mine too since its just opposite yours.

One super heavy rainy day

jeannie sitting happily in her room cuz raining, handphone had a msg.

Amanda: its raining heavily and im stuck in arts! bus stop no shelter back hall!

jeannie immediately picked up phone and called amanda

jeannie: where are you? i bring umbrella go the bus stop and fetch you!

jeannie stood at unsheltered bus stop in super heavy rainy day and fetched amanda back hall.

One not so heavy but still raining day

jeannie msged amanda with no intention to ask her to fetch with umbrella. just to complain.

amanda: huh i cant fetch you cuz i got no umbella.

thanks ah. u are really a very good friend. -_- bleah. hahahahahhaa orh la but i still love you. though u are a evil friend.

Posted by Jeannie at 2:57 PM

Saturday, November 04, 2006

today is a good and bad day.

its good cuz...

1) i went night cycling! burned fats. and have aching legs.

2) meeting my family for dinner.

bad cuz..

1) memories flooded back when i went past familiar nightspots. wun elaborate.

2) i dreamt what i shouldnt be dreaming of again.

3) i feel jaded. for the 1st time in my life it hits me tt fairytales are ubbish after all.

4) stupid sad song played on media player.

5) i hate crying for stupid reasons.

6) i HATE crying,

7) im soaking up the book in front of me with salty water.

8) I'm not even supposed to be crying. im supposed to be happy, remember?

9) i just feel lost. and very pissed with myself on actually typing this post.

10) i feel super angry tt im sad. i dun wan memories, take them away pls.

how can u feel so alone when there are millions and billions of ppl in this world?

y do everyone always feel down, and sad. can all the lonely ppl get tgt and not be lonely anyway?

i guess im ranting.

shall go back to reading. one of the simplest plesaure in my life. tts to get lost in a book with a happy ending.

Posted by Jeannie at 6:17 PM

Friday, November 03, 2006

ROAR.

im disgusted.

eek. all those fakeness. and the acting. *shudder*

makes me pissed just thinking of it.

tt kind of behaviour tts uncouth. and so throw face to all respectable women in the world.

sometimes i get pretty disgusted by females.

HELLO. stop acting so slutty and so fake can?

we see right through the act man.

and its freaking disgusting.

if u want to act like one, act in someplace i'm not present.

Posted by Jeannie at 12:15 AM

Thursday, November 02, 2006

jeannie is tired.

1) i watched the ring! finally. thanks to halloween. oh. and i slept with all my lights and music on last night. eek. paranoid!

2) i got to eat the dumplings on business canteen! i like.

3) i gg to eat yamchar tml! happy. hahahaha.

4) my abs are all aching from swimming gym training. means im burning fats and building muscles!

5) my tamagotchi grew up. though its now super ugly. hahaha.

6) theres a 750g big enormous bottle of nutella on my table right now. i keep staring at the "with skimmed milk" sign to make myself feel less sinful.

7) i have successfully withstand more than a week of unsadness. im super proud of myself. and the happy days tt are gg to come.

8) im glad tt im the kind of person who can always console and pick myself up after a fall. and tt i can always cheer myself up with the simplest of things.

9) I realise tt i can wear heels without guiltiness!

10) im happy cuz i am gg to slack on my bed this whole afternoon! yayness.

Posted by Jeannie at 2:34 PM

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

oops forgot to post my ten happy things. hahahaha... here goes.

1) MQ mummy brought chilli crab back! had a rare lvl 7 gathering to talk rubbish. heartwarming!

2) A stranger tags a nice tag. Ok not stranger, but i dunnoe who it is. hahaha thanks loads though, it lets me know tt although we do not know each other, im still being cared for!

3) went for swimming gym training just now and conquered all 6 stages of hell! though i'll probably be aching like crazy tml.

4) i just ate chipsmore! chocolate makes me happy.

5) Wed is a free day! though i always have self proclaimed hols.

6) i going swimming tml!! yay!

7) Sweetie posted a sweet post on his blog abt me. =)

8) Jeanette is gg to let me adopt 2 of her baby hamsters! though i already have 2.

9) Going to eat pepperlunch on thurs!

10) Me and amanda reset our tamagotchi. now they are of the same age. hee.

i realised i'm scared of loneliness. tts one hurdle i have to learn to cross. =)