Sunday, October 23, 2005

wah lazy me. thousand years since i blogged.
am so bored writing and researching abt Ghandi tt i just had to take a litle break.. hahaha...
i so miss joan! whenever i encounter disgusting irritating ppl on the train i'll just think of her straightforwardness and wad she will do if she was there. hahahaha her antics nv fail to amuse me. i love u joan!
a thousand things to do nowadays, its hard to stop and smell the roses. sometimes i can just lie on bed and there are just so many thoughts and stress running through my mind tt i just cant fall aslp. and recently there is the hair dropping. i am gg bald soon if it continues!! i drop like 50 strands when i bathe la...
i miss the feeling of just lounging somewhere and not do anything, with nothing in my mind.. miss the simple companionship and easy chatter of friends sitting ard together, miss the walks down the beach, of cycling, of being on a swing..
but i kind of like my life as it is now, busy. packed full of activities everyday. JUst that hall is really a bad idea. well, it seems like a bad idea now. you try your best and do all the shit stuff just for who? sheares hall. u dun get anything in return. u step up to take a shit post that no one wans, and during elections they shoot u questions like no one's business as if loads of ppl are running for that post. halfway through i wanted to just walk out and say 'ok wadever i dun wan to run already u find someone for that post yourself then' ARGH i cant believe i actually took tt post up..
BUT
i guess the satisfaction will come after everything? when there are fruits of labour. but one thing is clear: after SWOC, i will not join anymore taxing activities in yr2. i have better things to do than to slog and slog. not tt i mind.. but i seriously rather spend time with my family, with my grandma especially, and with him. it may be a once in a lifetime experience, but ppl in my life dun stay forever too.

Posted by Jeannie at 1:04 AM