Wednesday, August 30, 2006




lazy to blog. sth wrong with blogger, i can only upload 3 photos! slowly then. these are pics of in the 3 months SWOC slogged. the lib became our home. we see each other the moment we wake till we went to slp. some of us even doze off in unglam manners when we got too tired.

i miss swoc! =(

Posted by Jeannie at 10:52 AM

Monday, August 28, 2006

Wednesday, August 23, 2006
I stand here, empathising with u, knowing that it is difficult to walk out of the tunnel filled with fond memories and sweet images, watching as u so desperately clinging onto watever things that can keep u from losing grip of the past, yet time ruthlessly shoves u forward, into, apparently, more uncertainty and despair.

But is there only darkness and despair for u when time shows u the way forward? is there no 1 flashing a torchlight at u, urging u to place ur trust in him, and take ur slow step towards him, however tiny the light maybe?

This is a journey of ur own. To pluck up the courage and walk forward, or remain stationary, i cant decide for u. wat i can do, and i will do, is wait. wait and wait and wait. and maybe seduce, entice and attract u to come towards me. hahahaha...

Im ok! as long as i still feel its worth it.

Thank you. Although i nv did tell you, but tt touched my heart. alot.=)

and i promise you, tt i will try my very hardest to walk forward.



Posted by Jeannie at 7:40 PM

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

suddenly i realise. have i been running all along?

running away from facing the truth, the pain.

running away from the tears tt should be streaming down.

all the tears, bottled up inside me.

i know, i shouldnt be thinking abt this now.

but i cannot deny the fact tt as the clock ticks, i struggle with the emotions welling up within me.

every bit of my heart is screaming for time to slow down. i dun wan an ending.

but common sense tells me it has ended, its just an official ending.

i dread tml, yet i long for it.

choices in life.

so wad is correct?

i have let go. have i? or have i been merely procrastinating, refusing to acknowledge.

i need to think. i need to get out of the past.

im sorry.

Posted by Jeannie at 11:41 PM

i am tired. i need a breather.

tt sentence cut through me, like a slap in the face.

a painful reminder, a flashback.

a haunting familiarity of the shit conversations i had in the past.

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i truly need a breather. before all the stress piles up.

i wan to meet long lost friends, want to enjoy life, to sit on the bed reading a nice book.

but oh wells i guess this is how life is.

Posted by Jeannie at 11:23 PM

Friday, August 18, 2006

somewhere along the road, i lost myself.

now, i have to find myself back.

i am super bored. somehow, life feels meaningless.

Posted by Jeannie at 6:15 PM

Monday, August 07, 2006

i dont know wad to think anymore.

i dun even know if it hurts.

Posted by Jeannie at 3:35 AM

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

ARGH. ok this is a distraction. but i dun want to sink in.

lets hope its just a phase.

Posted by Jeannie at 1:21 AM