Monday, October 30, 2006

lazy to blog. like three hundred things that i need to do.

is there no end??!!!!!

on a nice note, got acapella performance later! and i havent bought my green top. oops.

i guess its time to look at the happy side of everything.

hahahaha out of boredness, i think i shall post ten happy things everyday, to remind me how fortunate i actually am.

1) I have a lovely mum, who calls to ask after me, and brings porridge, herbal tea and soup to hall for me when i fall sick.

2) And my daddy, who doesnt really show affection, but is actually always anxious after his 2 precious daughters, who dun mind driving all the way from the east to the west to visit.

3) My sister, who is nicer and whom i am nicer to now since ive started living i hall. and your hamster is SO cute.

4) That i am able to run around and enjoy sports that i like. and skip along corridors.

5) I'm not too ugly! Just fat, but thats my own problem. =)

6) I'm not too clever, but not stupid either! and i have enough education to live on my life in future.

7) At least i can sing in tune! hahahahaha i love aca.

8) I can swim for free in the nus pool! swimming rocks.

9) I have YOU. who understood and stayed by me through the dark periods of my life. you can always put the smiles and laughter on my face.

10) My lovely hall friends!!! ppl who nv fail to entertain me cuz their all so cute and fun.

11) hahahaha so many to write, shall write 11 points today: and my dear amanda, who is my opposite neighbour. im really REALLY glad to have u in my life, to study tgt and slack tgt and always going shopping and eating. hahahaha oh and wasting our money.

yay. im a lucky girl.

Posted by Jeannie at 1:17 PM

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

i HEART my new phone! N6288. pics are very clear. i din know 1 and 2 megapixel makes a great difference!! and it comes with a 512mb sd memory card. super super nice. *happy*

i sold my old phone. gone are the sweet msges, the memories tt i have with it. away goes the pain, the longing, the hope. no more thinking of you whenever i look at it. i feel this sense of relief. i've let go.

new phone, new start. =)

did i say i love my phone? i love my phone!!!!

Posted by Jeannie at 4:44 PM

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

me and dear's cups. hahaha i took the blue and he's using pink!

i think nothing beats sitting in my hall room, windows wide open, the cool windy and slightly stormy weather outside and listening to jay chou's songs.

how everything can just feel absolutely so beautiful and calm and peaceful.

i like. =)

i think the haze just heats up everyone's temper. sensitives eyes, sneezy noses, not enough oxygen.

but today is just nice. happy holidays people!

for once lets forget that we have never ending essays to write, trainings to attend and meetings to think about.

Posted by Jeannie at 4:06 PM

Monday, October 23, 2006

i dun think ive ever said it before to you, but ive always felt it.

i just wanna say thank you, for appearing in my life. =)

thanksfor sticking with me throughout this period of time.

thanks for bringing so much laughter and happiness into my life.

thanks for understanding.

thanks for all the breakdowns u saw me through.

thanks for being there for me.

and for trying to help me out of the abyss i crashed into.

from the bottom of my heart, thank you.

i'll be happy from now on.

i will let go of my past. cuz youre my present! and future too. =)

Posted by Jeannie at 3:01 AM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

i dun think ive ever been so angry in my life.

there i was making enormous efforts. using all my willpower.

the new start meant so much to me.

and it was all stomped on by YOU. all belittled. looked down upon.

it all became NOTHING.

fine. now i give up trying.

Posted by Jeannie at 6:37 AM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

a new start.

i guess its time to stop wallowing in self pity and tt never ending craziness.

time to start appreciating other things in life. hahaha.

KNS. im jeannie leh. no one can take away my happiness.

you cant make me cry anymore. you don't hurt me anymore.

you're nothing. bleah.

away with all the nightmares, all the heart ache.

from now on, i see only the happy side of everything, just like be4!

Posted by Jeannie at 6:06 PM

Friday, October 13, 2006

slept 2 hours and went for 8am midterm ppr.

my brain was totally not moving when i stared at my ppr.

and i panicked when i realised i couldnt see the clock and gauge the time.

oh wells.

went KLunch with adrian ernest qingjun, laobeng, gilyn and amanda after that!

though i was super tired. but it was fun!

an advice to all, dun eat nasi briyani there, its totally bad.

time passes fast when we were singing! we nearly couldnt bear to go.

******************************************************************************

piggy died! poor hamster.

me yingying and amanda buried it and sang auld lang syne.--> is it spelt this way?

may u be happy in hamster heaven.

*******************************************************************************

life is so tiring.

no heart to do anything anymore. like seriously.

i just want everyday to pass like this, nua-ing everyday. and just stone.

shall play the glad game soon. i need to cheer myself up!

Posted by Jeannie at 10:25 PM

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

oops. too agitated in the previous post so i took it off.

tt wasnt me talking. hahaha so whoever was unlucky enough to see it, sorry!

im actually sweet and nice. =) so lydia, tt wasnt me! hahahaha

to our dearest SWOC chiobu club chairman, hope you had a happy 20th birthday on 10th Oct! hahaha love you always girl. =)

Posted by Jeannie at 2:29 PM

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

On this nice little day when me and amanda was super bored, we decided to head down to sheng shiong, bought groceries, and cook our own dinner!

we cook mussels in chilli, sushi and tangyuan!

thats me who was in charge of the tang yuan.
hahaha rll till my arm ache.
note the ugly nerdy look in spects.

our feast!

thats cook amanda. hahaha who made sushi!

and the ppl who came and ate cuz we cooked too much.
ahahahahaha

Posted by Jeannie at 1:46 PM

Monday, October 09, 2006

i keep sneezing blood. so disgusting! why is my body going haywire?

so many things i want to say, and i can't.

it keeps running through my mind. again and again. non-stop.

its all coming back to me, so much tt its appearing in my dreams.

can't u even let me have a little peace even when im aslp?

****************************************************************

yesterday i witnessed both the demise of my alarm clock and mouse.

my alarm clock went crazy, rang shrilly and when i plucked out all batteries, emitted a burnt smell.

my mouse just went dead. althought ive been using it less than 3 mins ago.

unluckiness is plaguing me.

i really lazy to upload photos. so some weird reason, blogger loads damn slow.

Posted by Jeannie at 9:36 PM

Friday, October 06, 2006

was going to upload photos, but blogger is so lag tt i ran out of patience.

somehow, just somehow, nothing seems to be able to fill the hole in my heart.

what is this emptiness?

as days pass, and the same old routine goes on and on.

lessons, hall life, lessons, hall life, lessons, hall life.

numb.

suddenly everything seem so unexciting, so stale.

nothing really makes me happy anymore.

nothing can make me cry either.

its like being stuck in this world where everything freezes in time.

i dun feel alive anymore.

what is this emptiness?

离开你以后, 并没有更自由.