Saturday, September 30, 2006

the last thing i ever imagined abt mid term break, is to be plagued by eye infection.

ARGH. got so unlucky or not. now i have 3 holes in my cornea.

cuz the eye specialist scraped 3 of the white spots in my pupil.

and i have to be in spects. nerdy, with red swollen eyes. actually i was quite scared when i went NUH. dun wan it to be something serious. dun wanna go blind!

i feel like a hermit. due to photophobia.

i can't stay under light, i keep tearing.

i want to go out.

miserableness.

have to go back on monday again.

till then, i am out of action. sorry everyone.

here is one last pretty picture of me, be4 i was disfigured.

Posted by Jeannie at 9:39 PM

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

things dun feel like they are going well anymore.

i want to balance up everything.

but this stupid eye of mine. just screws up all my plans.

i wan to get out and go training, for meetings, for courses.

but i cant.

frustrations.

i cant even find anyone to go doctor with me.

argh. and this week of hols is a gd chance to catch up on everything.

low motivation is the last thing i need.

sadly, its wad i lack.

not in the best of moods.

i guess its time, i change my life a little, even if it means sacrificing certain things.

Posted by Jeannie at 12:29 AM

Saturday, September 23, 2006

im tired of trying.

i thought i could succeed.

i thought i surpassed it and am on my way to happiness.

but i guess, sometimes expectations pull you down.

expectations worsen things. it gets you disappointed.

then u lose hope.

im tired.

i shall not care anymore.

i'll live my life in a different way from now on.

Posted by Jeannie at 3:45 PM

buaya week has ended. finally.

last night had me using my brains till it was fried. used up all my brain juice.

did the assignmt till 9am be4 i went to pass it up and slp. eek.

suddenly think that humans can actually be very ugly.

so fake. its like acting all the time. or is it just hall?

can't they see that we can see right thru their act?

so fake.

on a brighter note, its midterm break. i feel relieved somehow, that i finally have time to study.

mug mug mug. will mug hard this time.

but the thing is, i got addicted to anime. again. -_-

Posted by Jeannie at 4:26 AM

Monday, September 18, 2006

jeannie is happy!

haha havent been really really happy in a long long time.

busy busy week now. its buaya week! tiring. but fun.

too bad midterms coming. study study mug mug. im scared! for the 1st time. im gonna mug!

i love the weather nowadays. windy, breezy, stormy, rainy. makes me happy.

everything looks prettier when im happy.

Posted by Jeannie at 7:18 PM

Thursday, September 14, 2006

SNDCC photos! with SWOC and my "twin sister". dun we just look alike?! hahaha...

Posted by Jeannie at 2:38 PM

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

pms. stay away.

no mood to do anything at all.

i wan to study! i wan to do my essays. i wan to finish my readings.

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its so hard to get you out of my memory.

i can nv understand how u can walk away from me like tt. so cold.

i want to look at your name, and not skip a heartbeat.

sometimes i wish, i can just leave this place and all the memories behind.

how do you remember me as?

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buaya week's coming! hahaha somehow feel tired this yr. but i will still be nice to my buaya and buayee!

buaya week brings back memories. memories tt hurt.

tt was when u haven left.

the time of the month makes me out of control.

im sorry.

i need help getting out of this mess, this abyss.

Posted by Jeannie at 3:20 PM

Friday, September 08, 2006

i look down on you.

ive nv seen someone who is as shallow as you, or such a failure.

you want great things to be done, but u dun give your support.

u make rash decisions, showing how much u dun even understand the comms work. childish.

do u even understand us?

u are so not part of us. i deem u a failure.

Posted by Jeannie at 11:28 PM

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

having very low patience nowadays.

i keep finding ppl irritating. like VERY irritating.

to the point tt i dun even bother to be nice anymore. i snap.

any small snide comment or bitchy comment in general, or too much noise being made just irritates me. esp ppl who yak yak yak non stop in super loud sharp voices.

ARGH. i need to hide and find my nice self back. it seems to be missing.

help. find my missing patience back! wads wrong with me.

chio is in uk, we all miss him!

Posted by Jeannie at 11:23 AM

Sunday, September 03, 2006

seems to me tt unhappiness is persistant nowadays.

everything just feels dreary.

i cant smile. and maintain tt smile anymore.