Saturday, July 28, 2007

im tired. maybe this time im tired for real, and can go so tired that i will just give up.

i dread losing what i fought hard to get. i guess the saying is right, that if u nv play hard to get, that if u were always there, u will just be taken for granted.

not leaving after being lied to what seemed like a million times, being tricked and bluffed and cheated, now seems stupid.

no trust at all. i cant trust anymore. not after being lied to so many times, and finding out.

i cant scold and quarrel and talk without fearing the same old thing will happen agn.

why is everything going wrong. why do good things nv last.

maybe i shouldnt fight to make things right, maybe its time to wait for someone to fight to make things right for me.

Posted by Jeannie at 4:20 PM

back in hall. YAYS!

just spent my 1st night back in hall in my familiar bed. of cuz, i scrubbed every inch clean yesterday. but the only diff now is that i lugged my tv back! HAHAHA it totally feels livelier having a tv in the room, though it takes up space.

watched Rag Senior Presentation, loved everything. im happy to be back.

but things are gonna be diff. no matter how much i am sorely tempted to be part of a crazy hall life, i guess things must chnage now that im in my last yr. im not here to play, but to study hard. for once since im in uni, i guess i really must prioritize.

but i still feel kind of torn. i half regret and half feel relieved tt i spent my 3 months trying to build back my seriously depleted bank acct from last yr's 3 months stay in hall for swoc. but the only pleasure i get from building back my bank acct is approval from my mum. oh wells. i hate not being part of it.

and so its bittersweet from now on. no more ponning one whole week of lessons for buaya week, no more late nights and skipping tutorials.

but im happy being in my room. with super fast internet connection hahaha.

and now, stop raining!!! i wanna go home appease my mum cuz i moved in only giving her a few days notice in advance. oops.

Posted by Jeannie at 2:38 PM

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

haha lack of post due to lack of time to blog.

me and sweetie have slacked for 5 days! shit. hahahaha its like chalet,all lounging ard, gg places, eating nice food, watching Harry Potter at 10am in the morning! yays. clever us booked like 3 days in advance and had gd seats, but i din really like it though.

23 days to 1 year anniversary! yays now im your longest record and you are catching up to mine too. im looking forward to our happy day.

and of cuz, we shall work hard together to our 1st common goal, our 1st step to our future. so no more wasting money, and work hard!

hohohoho. when i blog last time its depressing sadness. when i blog now its sickening sweetness. yikes! i cant stand myself.

but on an exciting exciting note, can move back to hall soon! and i miss my dear sis who is currently at business camp. sian. got closer to her during the 3 months while walking the dog and going work tgt but now she moving to ntu hall and im moving back sheares so sad very hard to meet next time. oh wells.

i miss you sis!!!

Posted by Jeannie at 9:44 PM

Monday, July 09, 2007

its so heartwarming to be talking abt the future together.

although its still far away, but im really glad we are making plans and including each other.

it feels great to be treasured. and i feel right being with you.

haha i'll always be your super secretary!

Posted by Jeannie at 9:39 PM

Sunday, July 08, 2007

oh no i still havent blog.

my perfect saturdays are all piling up. hahaha but im at your house using your lappie!

i dont know, its been so long since ive felt happy and all of a sudden i dunnoe how to blog happy sweet mushy stuff. ok fine, i havent blogged a long time haha.

but i'm really glad we got through all that "trials and tribulations" as jason has put it and moved on.

hahaha so thanks to all who cared all along, esp lydia and xtina. HUGS. im fine now!! and happy. really glad having u all ard and giving the support.

and yayness i TOTALLY am dreaming of moving back to hall. and SWOC!!! yay camp havoc man.

Posted by Jeannie at 1:14 PM